Losing someone you love…

To say the last six months have been difficult is an understatement on the largest scale…

But before I dive into this blog, please be aware that it is about death and losing someone you love. I know this heavy topic might not be for everyone right now so please take care of yourself and pass on this one if you need.

I also just wanted to say thank you Team for all of your patience these past 6 months. I know there have been a lot of unanswered questions around Just Move and the new KaisaFit platform and I am so grateful for the time to pause, be with family, and heal.

I say that all to say, I am officially back to work and filming and new content will be coming to BOTH platforms in the next few weeks so stay tuned!

Now to the hard part…

For the first time in my life, I am having to deal with grief unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. And unlike anything I was prepared for…

2 years ago my dad was diagnosed with cancer. I will never forget the day he called to let me know the results came back positive.

I was in the middle of a training session when the phone rang. Calm, cool, and collected he let me know that the tumor was indeed cancerous and not to google it because the odds were not in his favor.

Mucosal melanoma…

I would come to learn all about this form of cancer over the next two years.

I would also come to learn all about my father. The most beautiful of gifts that I am eternally grateful for.

From the moment my father was diagnosed, I was aware that there was a ticking clock. I knew that time with him was limited and I was determined to make the most of it.

A phrase I absolutely did not understand before he was diagnosed, “cancer can be a gift…” proved to be true.

I would obviously NEVER wish cancer on anyone and would do anything to have my father back, but his diagnosis created an urgency that I don’t think I would have ever had.

An urgency to spend as much time with him as possible.

To really get to know him as a human, not just as my father.

And that became the most beautiful gift that his cancer could have possibly given.

Up until that diagnosis, we really didn’t have the closest of relationships.

My dad was a complex human…

Someone I didn’t always understand or see eye to eye with.

But the understanding that my time with him was limited completely changed our relationship. And in turn, it changed me.

I am forever grateful to have had the time to truly get to know my father and the incredibly special human that he was.

Although it was just two short years, we really made the most of it…

He took me back to his favorite place in the world, Finland. Spent endless evenings at my home teaching me how to make the perfect dirty martini. Bought me a tool kit and taught me how to take care of my home. And my most favorite of all, he let me in on all of his out-of-this-world thoughts and beliefs… he had the most wild and beautifully unique mind and I was so thankful to get to know this side of him.

Unfortunately on March 21st of this year, my father passed away.

I will forever miss him.

But forever be grateful for the time we had.

*If you’ve lost someone you love, I’m thinking about you and sending you love Team.

And to bring it back around and end on a positive note. I just wanted to say thank you again for your understanding as I navigated this difficult time. My entire world stopped as my dad’s health declined. Obviously, many things were affected by that, but one thing in particular was the content on Just Move and KaisaFit.

But I am so excited to be officially back to filming (I just left Seattle where I filmed 16 new classes!) and can’t wait to get back to moving with you all!